In my Legal Writing class in law school, we were all
required to do oral arguments. An oral argument is an argument spoken by an
attorney to an appellate court as to why his or her side should prevail in a
case. In this class, our fact pattern required us to speak to Supreme Court
Justices (not really, just pretend) and argue for or against religious-based
peremptory challenges. I’m not going to go into what those are or even which
side I argued for.
After my oral argument was complete and before we received
reviews from the Justices, I was upset because I felt that I had done very
poorly and would receive a low grade as a result. I had a legal pad and I kept
drawing sad faces on it while my opponent spoke. I had determined that my oral
argument was sub-par despite hours of preparation for it. I kept drawing sad
faces. Over and over.
When review time came around, it turned out that I had done
remarkably well! Even though I had become internally flustered, I had
maintained my composure and answered questions with clarity and insight. I was
thrilled. And shocked. Since I had become so flustered in my mind during my
oral argument, I just assumed that it had shown outwardly and that I had done
poorly. This simply wasn’t the case. I had done very well.
After the round was over, I went to my Legal Writing professor
(who was one of the Justices in my oral argument round) and told her the story
about the sad faces on my legal pad. She said something that initially made me
laugh, but eventually really resonated with me. She said, “Nan,
I don’t know how to make you not you.”
You might be taken aback by that statement, but know that it
came from a sincere heart. She was not trying to criticize me, but rather was
trying to explain to me that I was too hard on myself. She explained to me that
I was a perfectionist and that I couldn’t see my accomplishments because I only
focused on the negatives. She told me that I had done well on my oral argument,
I am a good student, and I should be more confident in that regard.
I threw those pages from the legal pad away just yesterday.
It reminded me that even when things don’t go as planned, they may still be
going in the right direction. Don’t be too tough on yourself. Allow yourself to
see your accomplishments. Be fair to yourself.
Take care,
--Nan
EXACTLY. I like this woman. And I love you! Great job on all of your accomplishments this year.
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